Gasp

eyes blown wide open
closed just as quickly
as senses of reality
set in.

a scribble from sometime in 2002 (I don't always date my stuff)

is your music so loud you cannot hear the fire engines?
that are racing through the grid of downtown
you look and catch a quick flash of red & yellow
but the lights aren't close enough to blind you
it is you who is pulling the alarm this time

can you see who it is?
you know very well it is that hand which has been trying all of your life to lead your decisions
is it enough to pull away?
will you be able to think by blaring your stereo?
or does it just drown out her incessant criticisms & judgements

the sirens are gone here
but they still sound in your head
like the apparition of something that could go wrong.

so you sit with their sirens in your head
music blaring
with a contentment that says to everyone
"I've got it figured, you don't need to work this one out"

All in good time you will.

it's like a painting that isn't quote finished yet - a work in progress
there is something it still yet needs to be finished
there in that bottom left corner
it isn't quite right
something, yes, something else.
what?
not something to block out what is already there
something to compliment it.

a stroke here, a smudge there,
no that's not quite it.
everyone will freely offer up suggestions but remember, their advice is free.
yeah you'll offend some people by not taking the up on their offer.

Remember this: only you can come up with a satisfactory solution.
don't let their sirens get so loud in your head they render you unable to think for yourself.
Don't disregard all suggestions based on teh fact you want to think things through in you rown mind.

Let your music stop once in a while to observe and absorb the sirens around you.
Where are they coming from?
What will you do with them?
Sure there are plenty of sirens that are not worth listening to,
but it is considering all the sirens that you discover what will be useful
& what you can adjust to fit that corner.

Don't get too absorbed into the rhythm of their sirens
sometimes they just get too loud.
When they get too loud that means it's time to leave.

Let your music continue to create itself.